I'm Angry

[Darkmoon]

Sorry to hear that. Hope things go as you hope.

[Alexia_Ashford]

Thought I'd post it in here though I'm not really angry, just sad. People should probably know as we've posted on here and pics about being together and stuff. Me and Gareth (Zombie_Fred) have ended our engagement, split up and are both now single. We've outgrown each other and want different things from life, and I want to be free to go out and party, live a little, see the world, explore my sexuality and whatnot; and he wants to see the world, focus on his career, enjoy his 20s and not settle down right away. It ended very amicably and we will still continue to be good friends.

[Alexia_Ashford]

Feels so weird venting on here about something so personal. I am going through a stream of ups and downs lately. I don't know why, because there are so many things it could be. Ever since my grandmother moved back it's been difficult. She's just, well, difficult to live with. She brings out the worst in the rest of my family. And ever since my birthday in early December, it's been worse. I've been down on myself, feeling like I'm 20 and haven't done enough in my life yet. I know 20 is young, but still. I could die tomrorow and...I'm not satisfied. I know I shouldn't be down on myself, there are people my age and older who are far more useless, and have no guilt about it. I also went off of my birth control, something I've been on since I was 13 to regulate my system. Now everything is unbalanced. Just when I thought my fears, doubts, worries, general anxiety was starting to get better.

I don't know if it's an actual chemical imbalance in my mind, I don't know if it's my body adjusting to not being on birth control, or a general funk. I also hate Janurary and February, this time of year never helps. I am going to see my doctor in ten days but I feel just...lost. I feel like I'm drifting away from the people around me. I'm trying to be strong but I am scared to death to lose this person who is so important to me. Most of the time I'm confident, so why am I so scared...? I just can't lose this person, or any of my other friends. I just wish someone would hug me and tell me it's going to be okay but even then, my mind might not believe it no mater how much I want it to. I want to be happy like I was back in Fall. I'm so sorry, this must sound so emo to you guys, but I need to tell someone, anyone.

I was on birth control (depo provera to be exact) from age 16 to 21, and it completely fucked with my body. It made me put on weight, lethargic, down, I didn't even realize till I came off it. I've been completely different since I've been off it, much stronger sex drive, lost weight, and I want to get out and party, live my life instead of being stuck around playing games all the time. You really don't realize how much birth control can fuck with your body until you're off it. Having periods again is a small price to pay for being me again.

[Wrathborne]

Keep breathing Inferno, just keep breathing. Thats all you can do when times get tough.

[Inferno04]

Feels so weird venting on here about something so personal. I am going through a stream of ups and downs lately. I don't know why, because there are so many things it could be. Ever since my grandmother moved back it's been difficult. She's just, well, difficult to live with. She brings out the worst in the rest of my family. And ever since my birthday in early December, it's been worse. I've been down on myself, feeling like I'm 20 and haven't done enough in my life yet. I know 20 is young, but still. I could die tomrorow and...I'm not satisfied. I know I shouldn't be down on myself, there are people my age and older who are far more useless, and have no guilt about it. I also went off of my birth control, something I've been on since I was 13 to regulate my system. Now everything is unbalanced. Just when I thought my fears, doubts, worries, general anxiety was starting to get better.

I don't know if it's an actual chemical imbalance in my mind, I don't know if it's my body adjusting to not being on birth control, or a general funk. I also hate Janurary and February, this time of year never helps. I am going to see my doctor in ten days but I feel just...lost. I feel like I'm drifting away from the people around me. I'm trying to be strong but I am scared to death to lose this person who is so important to me. Most of the time I'm confident, so why am I so scared...? I just can't lose this person, or any of my other friends. I just wish someone would hug me and tell me it's going to be okay but even then, my mind might not believe it no mater how much I want it to. I want to be happy like I was back in Fall. I'm so sorry, this must sound so emo to you guys, but I need to tell someone, anyone.

[Eoweniel]

^ OFF WITH HIS HEAD!

Anyway, a little update about the thing with mom and her work. Apparently this guy who has his father placed in the "retirement home" is breathing down the neck of every single staff-member and he's reporting people left and right for the slightest mistake they make. He even takes breaks from his job to come in and watch the staff as they work. So now the entire workplace is going to be "investigated", which essentially means 20 vs. 1. He doesn't have a snowball's chance in hell. In fact, people can start reporting HIM for harrassing the staff. It's not like his father is the only elderly person the staff has to deal with.

This guy is known for suing places left to right, trying to come off as somekind of martyr by posting in the local newspapers about how he took down various places and threatening everyone with how his entire family is full of lawyers... What a fucking joke of a man. Sad, pathetic idiot.

[Trent]

Well, someone does, like the kind of people who should be removed from the pool gene for being too fucking stupid.

But if they get removed, we won't have hot women anymore.

*Runs off*

[Eoweniel]

^ *AGREE AGREE AGREE*

[Wrathborne]

Well, someone does, like the kind of people who should be removed from the pool gene for being too fucking stupid.

A good example:

[alexdz]

Well, someone does, like the kind of people who should be removed from the pool gene for being too fucking stupid.

[Darkmoon]

So you're why they keep coming back!

[Eoweniel]

Me. I needs me some viagra.

[Darkmoon]

Thanks Enetirnel. And thanks Warthborne. Although you can also use the handy report button to tell all the mods, not just me. Then we can host a competition to see who kills them fastest.

Seriously though, who actually clicks on spambot links?

[Enetirnel]

AH, I didnt know you were about so I PM'ed Dark about this. glad to see its gone.

Ah, I was around but I got sidetracked talking about Mass Effect.

And god DAMN, what is with all of the adbots today?

I see the mess DM cleaned up this morning (sorry, would have done it but I slept in on my day off).

[Wrathborne]

AH, I didnt know you were about so I PM'ed Dark about this. glad to see its gone.