Haven't been this pissed off in awhile now.
*i'll use this rant in a spoiler box as its a long one*
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*i'll use this rant in a spoiler box as its a long one*
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Ok, so whatever, I got dumped by my long term girlfriend awhile ago basically because she had alot of problems, be it family ones etc, along with personal, she was taking things out on me and we argued alot because I had alot of health issues and financial problems and she didn't like the fact that I was unable to drop everything and bend over by flying to California to go see her straight away this summer, knowing she wouldn't have been in the country anyway, so after one arguement she dumps me, lets me beg for 3 hours on AIM *she wouldn't answer her phone* for her to stay like I was some pathetic lowlife then dumps me anyway, then a week later comes online after her saying I owed her my friendship that she had another boyfriend, someone more local to her and that I couldn't really do squat about it.
Fast forward 2 weeks now, she keeps contacting me on and off, we keep arguing as I want her out of my life, and she's demanding she keep me as a friend because I was her best friend, but she wants the best of both worlds, by now i've thought "fuck it", i've seen her for what she truly was, and I felt completely betrayed that she wrecked such a relationship we had and shacked up with someone else *rant I know*, so I thought i'll move on myself and started seeing someone else, for the most part i've been relatively happy, however she argues with me again, and tries to bring up the boyfriend in the mix to sort of f*ck with my head or emotions, so I bring up the girl im seeing.
She got really upset, brandished me a fucking pig then left, so, whatever, she's gone.
Then eventually she comes back online *not once will she let me call her or vice versa*, and tries to push out a peaceful resolution, she wants me to stick around as a best friend/mentor figure because frankly, I dealt with all her problems, and without me around she was pretty much dealing with everything alone, I told her no, I wasn't having it, and didn't want her in my life anymore after all she's done to me in the past *a long list of lying to me too it seems following a previous breakup and immediately seeing someone for awhile before re reconciled over a year ago forcing a break up between 2 of my other friends which I was unaware about*.
Basically I managed to get rid of her in the end, after a battle of angry emails and IM's, thankfully then theres no word for more then a few days, but then...
JUST to totally throw things into the blender again, the girl im semi seeing right now, she has a problem, shes to be fair a little on the paranoid side when it comes to my past, thinks I was some kind of player, having been hurt in the past by me I guess like I have been her, I really wasn't but awhile ago for god knows what reason a few girls were interested in me.
Basically things were going great between us now but I get an email today, she decided she probably didn't trust me enough that the ex was out of my life, and after seeing a bloody girls daytime talk show about closure with your ex's and women talking to their respective others ex's to basically dig dirt on them, she talks to MY ex on AIM, cue the hilarity I suppose I don't know the details, hopefully i'll never know, all I know is I got an email from the girl I was semi seeing about it and an apology, I should probably keep my feelings quiet but right now I feel extremely hurt and angry and more then a little blarsay about the whole thing right now.
Is finding a normal girl who's capable of just accepting me for who I am, and not go digging about in the closet an impossibility or something?
Admittedly i've screwed my my first couple of relationships because I found it hard to be open about myself, didn't have the best run of things as a child and I wanted to keep most of that to myself as it makes me sound really vunerable and It was difficult talking about it, but I don't have such problems now so im usually very open about things so if they had problems or wanted to know about me they could have just asked!!!
Im beginning to think its a bloody impossibility to settle down, as damn near everyone i've dated online and off has eventually turned into a bloody nutcase! and I don't want this crappy cycle repeating when im just really looking for a "normal" relationship and some bloody happiness for once in my life and for once in my life im not the one buggering things up for myself -_-.
Don't get me wrong, I know full to well no ones perfect, im far from it, a few miles far from it actually, but damn, this is kind of silly right now.
Fast forward 2 weeks now, she keeps contacting me on and off, we keep arguing as I want her out of my life, and she's demanding she keep me as a friend because I was her best friend, but she wants the best of both worlds, by now i've thought "fuck it", i've seen her for what she truly was, and I felt completely betrayed that she wrecked such a relationship we had and shacked up with someone else *rant I know*, so I thought i'll move on myself and started seeing someone else, for the most part i've been relatively happy, however she argues with me again, and tries to bring up the boyfriend in the mix to sort of f*ck with my head or emotions, so I bring up the girl im seeing.
She got really upset, brandished me a fucking pig then left, so, whatever, she's gone.
Then eventually she comes back online *not once will she let me call her or vice versa*, and tries to push out a peaceful resolution, she wants me to stick around as a best friend/mentor figure because frankly, I dealt with all her problems, and without me around she was pretty much dealing with everything alone, I told her no, I wasn't having it, and didn't want her in my life anymore after all she's done to me in the past *a long list of lying to me too it seems following a previous breakup and immediately seeing someone for awhile before re reconciled over a year ago forcing a break up between 2 of my other friends which I was unaware about*.
Basically I managed to get rid of her in the end, after a battle of angry emails and IM's, thankfully then theres no word for more then a few days, but then...
JUST to totally throw things into the blender again, the girl im semi seeing right now, she has a problem, shes to be fair a little on the paranoid side when it comes to my past, thinks I was some kind of player, having been hurt in the past by me I guess like I have been her, I really wasn't but awhile ago for god knows what reason a few girls were interested in me.
Basically things were going great between us now but I get an email today, she decided she probably didn't trust me enough that the ex was out of my life, and after seeing a bloody girls daytime talk show about closure with your ex's and women talking to their respective others ex's to basically dig dirt on them, she talks to MY ex on AIM, cue the hilarity I suppose I don't know the details, hopefully i'll never know, all I know is I got an email from the girl I was semi seeing about it and an apology, I should probably keep my feelings quiet but right now I feel extremely hurt and angry and more then a little blarsay about the whole thing right now.
Is finding a normal girl who's capable of just accepting me for who I am, and not go digging about in the closet an impossibility or something?
Admittedly i've screwed my my first couple of relationships because I found it hard to be open about myself, didn't have the best run of things as a child and I wanted to keep most of that to myself as it makes me sound really vunerable and It was difficult talking about it, but I don't have such problems now so im usually very open about things so if they had problems or wanted to know about me they could have just asked!!!
Im beginning to think its a bloody impossibility to settle down, as damn near everyone i've dated online and off has eventually turned into a bloody nutcase! and I don't want this crappy cycle repeating when im just really looking for a "normal" relationship and some bloody happiness for once in my life and for once in my life im not the one buggering things up for myself -_-.
Don't get me wrong, I know full to well no ones perfect, im far from it, a few miles far from it actually, but damn, this is kind of silly right now.
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